it wasnt meant to be art. it was meant to be a slap in the face to deviant art. i didnt know i was deformed, im sorr, and they obviously dont know that breasts look quite a bit smaller when you hold your arms over your head. so in an effort to make people happy, i took down the picture, and ill starve myself for a fucking week, have my ribs surgically removed, get a boob job, and take a black and white photo of me lying naked in the sun, with my drivers lisence glued to my fucking forhead. im not going to be fucking good enough ever. this is elementary school all over again. i cant stand it. you may think im bitching, but if you had such hateful things said about you, would you take it? no, you wouldnt.
i just wanna die... i pride myself on how i look, and this account is the only form of niceness in life i get. truthfully, behind this, everything is shit. i am told im ugly and fat and worthless every day, and i just wanted someone, just one person to tell me im pretty, and i got big headed and took it too far.. yes, i am legal, no it wasnt meant to be art, yes i want to blink out of existance for every thinking im pretty, and that you werent just making fun of me, and thinking its funny i think youre really meaning it. just kill me becuase ill never be good enough. i havent felt this shitty in years. i actually thought i was pretty for a while.....

well IM FUCKING PISSED
in celebration of turning legal, before i could change my age on my user page, someone reported me, and i had all deviations where im not completely and fully dressed removed. so now i have to either repost, or say the fuck with it. all your wonderful comments are gone, my account is pretty much gone.
even the ones where i was clothed. all thats left is a few cell phone pictures, and my deviant id.
happy fucking birthday.

Im posting again, ok?
Please be nice.

Im done. Fuck it.
I know im fat. I know im not exactly gorgeous, i have bad skin, frizzy hair, and can't take anything less than amatuer shots.
I have been told i am ugly, fat, and worthless my ENTIRE..LIFE. Sick of it, i made this deviant, because no one would read my prose & poetry. I meant it to be of my drawings, and photos i took. With nothing to post, i posted a picture my friend ~squidflakes took of me at an anime convention. I didnt have that many pageviews combined on my old account.
I got amazing comments. People thought i was pretty. I hadnt had that much attention since i came to school with a mowhawk.
I know im not one of those beautiful, porn star models in the artistic nudes. Im naturally a bigger girl. I lose weight, and bounce back. Ive starved myself, and thrown up, ive done drugs. I dont really eat, im just fat.
You made me feel pretty, people. Ive always wanted to be a model, my entire life, but certain things have denyed me that, such as my weight, my height, and my lack of money. Dont give me BS weight loss tips in your comment, or i will be very angry with you. Just...look.
I hadnt gotten one bad comment, then some guy comes along and says im sick for posting, and that its nasty and disgusting, and truthfully, thats the way ive always felt. I know you dont want to hear your sex object whine, bitch, and complain, but if you guys really dont think im gross, if im not just what youre settling for, becuase i comment back, unlike the skinny models, if you just favorite and comment for no reason, and you dont actually mean what you say, and im just mediorcrately ok to look at, and its boobs so who care JUST FUCKING TELL ME.
Im sick of this shit. I was brave enough to post, and keep posting.. Shouldnt i at least get credit for that? Why cant people keep the bad comments to themselves?? I took a bunch of photos the other day, and i dont even have the courage to post headshots.
I really wish i was someone else. Someone pretty, so i wouldnt have to deal with this shit.

So I took a few new pictures, everything from really cute headshots to nearly topless.
You'll really like them! They'll be posted soon, so promote me if you love me! ;3

"The sun is up, the sky is blue. Its beautiful, and so are you.."
Siouxsie Sioux - Dear Prudence